i've realise one thing today. and that is how much this man matters to me and how badly i want this love of ours to move smoothly. and i came to know how this love changed the both of us. struggling again and again to salvage this love when problem came along. never ever did i ask myself or him whether are we tired from all this. tired of facing the same old problem again. only then to realise how much it hurts the both of us and that we really feel lethargic and tired. but i can't find ways or reason to back myself up for everything i've done, for why am i behaving like this. trying so hard to find a reason for us to carry on doing all this. was it still love or it's just too used to having each other by our side? never did we ever tried to stand in each other position to face the problem. is it too late now? when we came to this path here, is everything too late to be solve or settled? is everything going remain like this now? tell me, what can i do now so everything returns to how it used to be?
