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Hi. I'm sylvia :DThis is my blog.
So i say & type things i love
Hate me, thank you very much, Goodbye :)
Turning 18 next 10nov
Had a wonderful & superb groups of friends
Got the best sweetheart in the world :D
Face the fact that Humans nevers appreciates
& some were never contented
Past
Sweetest Goodbye
Saturday, March 27, 2010 // 6:39 PM
boohoos, i'm back peepo! was real busy to recently. as many many things happen which i don't wish to elaborate. i've only selected a few BKK pictures to be posted here as it's gonna take ages for them to finish uploading. revzone drinking with lynna and head down white bar with best denki peoplelast night. and so many turn up. and i miss everyone so much sia. wendy was saying i've chnaged so much and blar blar blar. lols. cab down rev to meet boyf and home sweet home after that. boyf went batam yesterday with shawn and kc and bought us a polo couple shirt :D gonna watch my hongkong show and head down ion to look for boyf and "Alice in the wonderland" here i come on monday! lols. now, i'm gonna wait till next week before i blog again! lols. till then. hopefully, everything turns out for the better.
love you still.
Monday, March 15, 2010 // 6:05 AM
i'm blogging at 6.05am now. because i'm struggling so badly to slp just now and i can't and i'm gonna prepare to go work soon. my eyes have swell up due to the past 4 to 5 hours of crying. i'm feeling so uncomfortable. i can't just go to slp treating as though nth happen. because sth bad really did happen. no more alvin amd chipmunk 2 or new moon together. no more japan trip together anymore. no more having the chance to wear the gift you got for me on valentine's day. no more celebrating of birthday together anymore. no more whining and crying to your side again. no more pubbing and clubbing anymore. no more buying sweet lovely things for you. no more dinner together. no more sentosa trip. no more booking of sentosa resort hotel anymore, no more hanging around toy shop when we're free. no more searching high and low for hello kitty, stitch or transformers together anymore. no more arguing at pool table about who's going to let who win anymore. no more having someone to carry my bag or notes after school. no more trains ride with you teaching me my notes and scolding me anymore. no more fighting over blankets and bed anymore. no more pat pat to sleep again. there's more. so much more. but i can't seems to focus. my head hurts so badly! i'm gonna wash up and prepare for work now. friends pls don't ask. i'll tell you guys when i'm ready. thanks
are you still returning?
:'(
// 4:00 AM
we lose out to the 15 mins. after struggling through so much, we couldn't overcome it.
as much as i still loves you, i hope you'll be doing fine.
because i still miss everything we used to do, places we used to have been and happy moment we used to have.
i'll do as i promise to be a better person.
we were not as strong as we thought we would be.
loving you alot still.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 // 4:39 PM
i'm gonna blog. i know i'm blogging without photo now and i know my blog is boring, if you don't like, leave. anw, i'm back from bangkok. i did enjoy myself, at least, i forgotten about those unhappy things. i got drunk just the night before i went bangkok. and i know i create a scene and made everyone worried. sorry. it's just that i couldn't find any more strength to carry on acting strong. i let it out. right now i don't know what i should do or how i should behave in order to maintain our love. why not you come and teach my yourself? worn out :/ started class at BMC yesterday. damm tired. was trying so hard to get my brain to work and my eyes to open. have to finish up my math homework soon before my tutor gonna nag at me again this sunday. till then :D
Monday, March 01, 2010 // 2:32 PM
i've realise one thing today. and that is how much this man matters to me and how badly i want this love of ours to move smoothly. and i came to know how this love changed the both of us. struggling again and again to salvage this love when problem came along. never ever did i ask myself or him whether are we tired from all this. tired of facing the same old problem again. only then to realise how much it hurts the both of us and that we really feel lethargic and tired. but i can't find ways or reason to back myself up for everything i've done, for why am i behaving like this. trying so hard to find a reason for us to carry on doing all this. was it still love or it's just too used to having each other by our side? never did we ever tried to stand in each other position to face the problem. is it too late now? when we came to this path here, is everything too late to be solve or settled? is everything going remain like this now? tell me, what can i do now so everything returns to how it used to be?
